MY FEELS?

Hullo everyone,
I can't think of anything particular to white about, so I'm just gonna randomly write about anything that comes to my mind at this moment. There will probably be no one reading it anyway, so it doesn't really matter.

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Today I tried to re-decorate my lovely room again and I'm quite satisfied with the result. Well, it's certainly better that it was before (there was a would-be motivating "Stay strong" text and an old, but really big One Direction poster... yeah...).

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I'm listening to the sound of raindrops gently falling on my window (yes, i have a sunroof) and it seems to me that I don't have any purpose in this sick world. She should have died when she was born. It wouldn't have changed anything, 'cause I am nobody.

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I love this weather. Rain, fog, darkness. It's so beautiful.

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C'est pas ma faute

Et quand je donne ma langue aux chats

Je vois les autres

Tout prêts à se jeter sur moi

these are the ones i was looking for :C

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And I also tried to find a Nirvana t-shirt in this fucking city (forgive me this rude word), but I didn't find the one I was looking for. So I decided to improvise and make it myself. It won't be as good as the original, but whatever.

I also tried to find The Beatles t-shirt. This attempt was more succesful, but I will probably also make this shirt myself (the price is quite unavailable for me C:).

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Oh, and yesterday I was on a ride with my close friend (Like, with our horses. Yes, I do horse-riding. I never mentioned that? Well, I'm mentioning it now.). And it was sooo cool, 'cause it was the first time we were allowed to go alone, just by ourselves! Just me, her and our lovely horses. It was such a strange and wonderful feeling. 

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And that is, I think, everything. I won't go any further, 'cause I know you probably didn't even get here. And if you did, you have to be really bored and annoyed (but you surely have my admiration and gratitude).

I'll see you at the next uninteresting article I'll write!

-Anna

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We were two kids, just trying to get out

Lived on the dark side of the American dream

We would dance all night, play our music loud

But when we grew up, nothing was what it seemed

OLDIES VS NEWS?!

Hullo guys,
Let's focus on something a bit different today. I'm talking about something that's been here for a long time now and it's still pure and fresh. Something that young people keep coming back to, even after all these years. The wise already know. I'm talking about the "old" music (And some stuff about today's music. Just to annoy you. Haha.)!
I believe today's music is already so affected by commerce and "modern technology", that it gradually loses it's original meaning. Today's "music stars" are usually nothing but another means for making money, being used by cunning managers. It's all based on money and contacts. If you have one or the other (or preferably both), the "fame&glory" is yours. Kiss, kiss. Welcome to the shining business.
Well, I prefer the oldies and the based-on-them bands as you probably figured. From The Beatles, Pink Floyd, The Velvet Underground, Nirvana and Oasis to today's Ocean Colour Scene, Radiohead, The Cranberries, The 1975... And I thought that if you don't know or don't listen to these greats already, I could show you at least some of their work. C:

click here to see it

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LIL' BIT OF SENTIMENT

Hullo there guys,
Last time I talked about some serious stuff so today I'm gonna talk about something bit more sentimental, deep and espcially not serious. C: I came up with this little "story" out of my fave quotes few days ago and I surprisingly kinda like it so... here we go! C:

"You look rad" he grinned.
"I'm sad" she replied.
"Why?"
"Kinda disgusted of my fat body" she said smiling with irony. Then she looked down.
"What are you talking 'bout? You're not fat, silly" he said smiling at her.
"I am. Ugly and fat. That's the problem."
He paused for a little while. "Well, if you think so... Then face the problem."
She laughed. "You can't face the problem if the problem is your face."
He paused again and smiled a little, trying to find the right words. Eventually, he said: "You are beautiful, but you're empty. No one could die for you."
She looked back at him quite surprised, now with this spark in her eyes. He caught her look and they were looking right at each other for a moment.Then she turned away and the spark was gone.
"I don't need anyone to die for me."
"Oh, you do. Everyone does" he smiled sadly.

"Well, I'm obviously not everyone." She kept telling herself she doesn't need anyone, but the truth was, they didn't need her.
"I bet you'd appreciate it at last. A guy who'd always be there for you, who'd buy you flowers and sing for you and stuff like that."
She laughed again. "A perfect boyfriend?"
"Yeah, a perfect boyfriend! I mean, who wouldn't love to have one, right?"
"I wouldn't" she said "People are screwed up in this world. I'd rather be with someone screwed up and opened about it then somebody perfect and ready to explode."
He nodded. "I guess this world just got worse, huh? All this sadness and depression and people not giving a single fuck about each other..."
She was quiet for a while. Then she said just. "The world didn't get worse. Your eyes just got wider."

A CHANGE?

Hullo guys,
It's been a long time, but I'm here again. Today I'm gonna talk about something more... serious I guess? Lately I've been thinking... And the more I thought, the more I felt like crying. I decided to share this little thought here with you because honestly, I don't know who else should I talk with.

 CAUTION! BORING PART! CAUTION! BORING PART! CAUTION! BORING PART! CAUTION! BORING PART!  

Yeah, so where should I begin? Everything's changing so fast. By this time last year I never imagined my life would be like this. Or maybe I did, I don't know. In fact it all started by this time last year.
I feel like if I met myself in the street, I'd hate me. I'm gone, empty. I can't control it. And I don't even try anymore.
But what I wanted to talk about today is this decision I have to make. In short I have to choose if I wanna leave my school and go to this private English high school, or if I wanna stay here with my few friends (and uncountable number of non-friends, including my ex-boyfriend).
To be serious, it's really not very pleasant to see him every day, being so obviously happy and better off without me. It's not like I still love him. But this is so weird. Especially when my "friends" talk to him.
And I hate everyone in our school so much and I hate my class. On the other hand, I'd probably hate everyone in every other school, because they're all the same. And I hate people in general. But then there are my friends, my real friends. I really don't wanna lose them, they're kinda everything I have.
Leaving my current school is idisputably an appealing idea. But leaving my friend Tess to the mercy of those idiots is selfish and ungrateful.
And it also crossed my mind... how would this ex (hate this word, it|s so improper) react to it? How would he react to my disappearance? Is it strange to think about it? I wonder if he'd be happy...
Because if I were in his place, I would.

DISNEY!

Hullo guys,
So I got inspired by one video on YouTube and I thought this might be interesting for everyone. C:
Today I'm gonna talk about disney movies because I'm sure most of you love them like I do. I think everyone has their favourites and that's why I decided to talk about few mine. Then you can let me know which film do you love most in the comments.

• Spirit Full name is Spirit: Stallion of the Cimarron. This is definitely my absolute favourite because it's just perfect for me you know - I really love horses (I guess you've figured this one is about horses). And not just because of this fact. It's really touching, exciting, the story is quite well thought out... I've seen it like five times. And well, I cri evrityme.
• My rating: 10❀/10❀

• Tangled
  Yeah, I think you know this one already. BUT I couldn't help myself. I love this one, It's soooo gorgeous - the songs in it are catchy and the characters are funny and charming. If you haven't seen this so far you have to. No, you need to.
• My rating: 10❀/10❀

• Tarzan
  Don't know if you know this one but I really adored it as a child. It's about this kid who accidentally ends up alone in the jungle when he's still a baby (a tiger killed his parents) and grows up among gorillas. When he's an adult he meets this girl Jane and, as in every fairy tale, he falls in love with her. And the story goes on, it becomes increasingly more interesting as it ultimately results in something really unexpected.
• My rating: 8❀/10❀

• Aladdin
  Yeah, my brother played the Aladdin: Nasira's Revenge game and I always sat there staring at the screen so I guess I've made some kind of relation (is this the right word?:D) to it. Well, it's also a great movie so I definitely recommend to watch it. I bet you're gonna love Aladdin!
• My rating: 7❀/10❀

SCHOOL PROJECT

Hullo guys,
We have this guy in our class and he's like... bit of freak. He makes (? is this the right word? idk) strange noices - whining, squealing, howling... I guess he's doing it for fun, but still. He's got a nickname (like all the freaks) but I don't really know how to convert it to English. So let's just call him Buck.
So Buck presented his civics project Me (like... about him) today. He started with: "When I was in my mom's belly my parents were still looking forward to me. So far."
We burst out laughing. He seemed like he had no idea why are we laughing so hard so he just paused. After a while he continued.
"When I was finally born everyone was unhappy." - We burst out again - "I was sleepy all the time. When my dad came to see me&mom to the hospital I was always asleep."
Yeah. Then he began talking about his toddler period.
"When I was a toddler I still only wanted to sleep. I used to wake up crying at night but I slept all day long. My favourite sleeping spot was this laundry basket." *he showed us a pic of the red laundry basket* We began laughing really loud.
He continued with the next slide. Favourite activity (in the toddler period): licking and nibbing my crib railing. Followed by the photo of little Buck lying on his bed sticked to the railing. That was it. We almost fell off our chairs. It took me a while to realize it's him on the pic. We could see only his chin and neck. Well, and mouth.

click "read more" for Buck's 'new garden' experiences

THE HUNGER GAMES

Hullo guys,

we had spring break in my country few days ago. For me it was more like 8 days of reading, drinking like milion cups of tea a day and exploring nature near our cottage.
I wanted to read Lolita (by Vladimir Nabokov) but i got The Hunger Games from my friend and, well, I've been dying to read this book for a long time. So yeah, after few days I gave up on hope I can overcome this desire.
And my feels? This book touched me so much sometimes I read it for 7 or 8 hours straight (like really, I went to bed really late because I just couldn't stop). I've never spent that much time reading a book, even though I really love it.
I have to say The Hunger Games books are definitely one of the best (maybe the very best) books I've ever read in my entire life. And believe me, I've read a lot of brilliant books.
The thing is these books make you think. When you finally manage to stop reading, one way or another you end up thinking about what you've just read for another couple of hours. It's incredible. Once you read all of them, you'll yearn for more.